Thursday, November 29, 2007

Look, there it is!

Today could not have gone any better. It was the day for the first ultrasound and to find out how far along we were. I was so happy and anxious at the same time, it was a stange feeling.

It didn't take very long at all for michael jackson to appear. She measured him and found us to be between 6 weeks and 6 weeks and 1 day along. You could see the heart just a beating to. Very strange to think that somewhere inside me there is this grain of rice sized baby with a heartbeat. Of course I cried, who wouldn't. The heart beat was hard to measure since it was so small and seemed to move a lot. I had to hold my breath a couple of times so she could get a better measurement. But, it was beating strong at 116 BPM.

As I sit here now and recount our experience, I have an overwhelming sense of wanting to go back and see it again and make sure everything is ok.

Our next appt is in two weeks. Of all of the fun stuff we are going to discuss at this appt, one of them is the cost of a baby. Don't you think they should tell you about this BEFORE you get pregnant. Something tells me, even though we know a baby is going to be expensive and cost a lot, I have a feeling they are going to shock us. Oh well, I think the joy of having a baby will far outweigh worrying about what it will cost us.

Until then, have a GREAT day!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

The countdown begins

How many irrational thoughts do you think one person can have in a matter of days? Let me be the first to tell you a lot. The long awaited (since Monday) ultrasound is tomorrow. We are very excited, right now. I am just waiting on this to change to fear and anxiety. Why? I don't know. Because I am being ridiculous again.

This morning I had one of my more irrational thoughts. The ultrasound they will do tomorrow is a vaginal one. At this early stage, it will show more than just a tummy one. So, I was thinking, what happens if she/he doesn't know what they are doing and breaks the mucus plug that is protecting our little michael jackson. Now, I know that these people have probably done a bazillion vaginal ultrasounds before me, so what makes me think I will be any different. I guess that is the way we feel when it is us and not someone else. It is different when it is OUR baby or OUR body that is being poked and prodded.

Now, I am sure you are wondering about the michael jackson. I have always wanted to name our little boy Jackson. I guess ever since Steel Magnolias, I have loved that name. So, Randy took that and now he calls him michael jackson. It is very cute. He likes to talk to him.

I think Randy is going to be a wonderful father. I am so luck to be able to share this journey with him.

Well, some people actually have to work for a living, so I must go do that now.

Monday, November 26, 2007

What a wait!

Well, this past weekend was a LONG one. My second beta test was done on Friday morning. I had myself so worked up that things were bad it is a shame. In my world, it took forever for the nurse to call me back this morning. But alas, she called back and everything was great.

Second beta came back at 9713 (I think) Once she said 9 thousand I quit listening. I was so relieved I tuned everything out and caught the second half of the answer.

We have scheduled our first ultrasound for Thursday. We are very excited. It is going to seem like forever for that day to get here. At that appt we should find out about due dates and how far along we are.

In other news, your daddy is sick still. He has now been diagnosed with an almost case of walking pneumonia. Let's hope he gets better soon!! Somebody has to pull the transmission out of the car.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Day One

Well, I have always been a good sleeper. At least 8 hours a night. To which I would get up and exercise on an empty stomach.

That ended abruptly. I was up at 2 am for the first of many times. Finally got out of bed about 4:45 am because I was starving and had to have something to eat. Sugar coated raisins it was. I know, extremely healthy.

It seems mornings are the hardest so far.

I started taking Prometrium again due to low other levels. The prometrium made me extremely dizzy this afternoon.

In other news, Randy has been sick for 2 weeks now. He has been given an inhaler, antibiotic, and decongestant. It seems that going to work makes his breathing worse because of all of the dust in the air. So, he has been home late morning for the past two days. But today, he cleaned and did a FANTASTIC job straightening up the house.

He wanted to pull his transmission out of his 1972 Duster twin turbo drag car, but felt to sick to even do that. Now that must be sick!

I better get the instructions for this thing!

On October 30, I had a pg test in order to get the go ahead to begin progesterone and get AF to come. You take this medicine for 10 days and AF will show up within the next 10 days.

Well, on day 11, AF still was a no show. Anxious to get this show on the road and begin clomid, I decided I would take a HPT so that when I called the dr's office I could tell them I had already taken one and it was negative and get on with what would be the next step.

Well, Randy had already left to go to work, and I took the test, just as a matter of procedure. Well, I decided later I better check it. And I looked at it and thought, huh, I better get the instructions, because I think it says I am pg. Well, it was positive. Completely unexpected, but very welcomed!

I think Randy was just as shocked as I was. We have never even started our medicine. We were still waiting on AF since her last arrival on Sept 16th. I took the stick to my sister just to get another confirmation. She agreed, and I was on the way to purchase a more expensive test. You know, the digital type. Where you can not mistake lines. Well, sure enough, it was positive also.

So, I called the dr's office. Needless to say, they were just as shocked as we were. But, miracles do happen. I was sent for labwork to get a Beta HC test. Dr's office calls back and says levels look great. First beta was 2500. The bad part is because of no AF, knowing how many weeks we are is difficult. We will know more after the first ultrasound.

So, until then, we are pregnant with a baby due sometime in July!